I hate doing nothing and being surrounded by no one and just wishing someone wouls text. And I hate worrying. Dang :/
I cant seem to find the right position to fall asleep. I know if you were here it wouldnt be a problem but when im alone it always seems like the biggest struggle. As well it makes me continually think about everything thats happened recently . I know im not perfect and neither are you but im sure we were ment to be hence why im trying to put every ounce of effort I can into this relationship. And into loving you. But sometimes I feel as if a simple I love you wont suffice. I just feel like there should be another saying more powerful then that. But there isnt. Maybe if I said it a bunch of times in a row to get my point across would that work? Who knows. Anyway. Its almost our 2 year anniversary and your birthday and I just cant wait. I do wish you would come to the lake with me. I hate going places without you. And I do know you need to relax. I jusst hate how you want it to be by yourself. :( it makes me feel like im doi g somethjng wrong. I LOVE YOU THOUGH CELINA .with all my heart and every ounce of me. ^-^ . and meow to try and find that spot in my bed in which is cold enough for me to pass out in. Wish you were here.